Well, I'm officially twenty years old now. Technically, I've been twenty since 8:06 this morning. x3 But still, it's strange. When I was a little girl I never really pictured myself being an adult. Everybody would ask, "Susie, what will you be when you grow up?"
"Oh, a vet," I would answer without thinking but truthfully, I don't think that I ever wanted to grow up. In fact, I still don't really want to grow up because it's just so alien to me. Yes, it is fun to say, "I'm not a teenager" anymore but it's a little scary too I suppose. I'm not where I ever pictured myself from last year.
In fact, this time last year Obama was announced as president around this time give or take an hour or two--which I have to say was a pretty bitchin' birthday present. :3 This year has had a fair share of ups and downs. Along the way I've lost a friend or two but I've picked up even more as well as worked on some old relationships I'm very happy I never let go of. A lot of life changing things have happened too. From a car accident, to three deaths this year, to probably the three best movies I have seen since ever, the release of the third book Coville wrote, going to Disney, learning how to manage money properly, growing, and eventually as well as hopefully switching my major.
I was pretty sad actually, when I woke up. I realized how long ago it seemed that my dad had died and the fact that he physically missed so much of my life. I was upset that my mom no longer had a "baby" she can really baby anymore but has gained a woman to be her friend. As the day wore on and I stood at work I just really thought to myself. You know, just really thinking. Not about the thoughts of running or driving anymore but about my future and realized.
Hey! I'm young and I have the world to be my oyster. There's still so much out there I want to do, I want to taste, I want to feel--not too much I want to smell though. But I want so much to live and be vibrant and have fun. In fact, while today I was thinking I figured out what I want to be now that I'm "grown up". I want to be happy.
- Listening to: Karen O & The Kids - All Is Love
- Reading: Swan Book 7
- Watching: Law & Order SVU
- Playing: Kingdom Hearts
- Eating: Crab Legs and Chocolate Cake
- Drinking: Water
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"Hold on, I can't spell while I'm writing." ~ Mr. Hoyt
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"Hold on, I can't spell while I'm writing." ~ Mr. Hoyt
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"If only, if only." The moon speaks no reply
Reflecting the sun and all that's gone by.
Be strong, my weary wolf, turn around boldly.
Fly high, my baby bird, my angel, my only.
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BADWOLF
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Beware of he who would deny you access to information, for in his heart, he dreams himself your master.
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So boycott love, detox just to retox
& I'd promise you anything for another shot at life,
& perfect boys with their perfect lives
Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy!
[falloutboy]
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